it's 0140 now... I dunno wad made me come here. nostalgia? or mere frustration? with a tinge of excitement with anger. what a complicated mood to have on a lonely morning... hahas.

I guess it's really time to see what I have accomplished in this year and what i have lost.. but dont worry, no whinings and rantings on this blog; I'll save it for my next yahtc trip=)

I just wish to say, many of us often unconsciously put ourselves before anyone else yet blatantly lie through our teeth that we care for others and want to help. Oh please, get over with your seemingly selfsacrificial thought and live in reality. I admit, I am such a person, but i will try to change? at least, first I will start with my family ... man, this sounds whiny.. PS its pure 100% crap=), well at least you bother to read><

just some lyrics.=)
写信告诉我今天，海是什么颜色？
夜夜陪著你的海，心情又如何？
灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁。
而漂泊的你，狂浪的心，停在哪里？

写信告诉我今夜，你想要梦什么？
梦里外的我是否都让你无从选择？
我揪著一颗心，整夜都闭不了眼睛。
为何你明明动了情，却又不靠近？

听，海哭的声音！
叹惜著谁又被伤了心，却还不清醒！
一定不是我，至少我很冷静。
可是泪水，就连泪水，也都不相信！
听，海哭的声音！这片海未免也太多情，悲泣到天明！
写封信给我，就当最後约定。
说你在离开我的时候，是怎样的心情！

lastly, highly recommended:



it is just a random post today...
had class outing and was seriously sun burnt... hehex..
i must say... sentosa is a place for bot babes and guys.. and noobs like us.
volleyball was fun though the sand was terrible.
and LJJ... u are dam poor thing. hahas...

actually after all of the tests and this whole year... i learnt alot and thought through a lot...
maybe when i am free i really pen down everything...

for now... i just wanna get over wid my physics olympiad, chem olympiad, SRP, and PW.... hahas... then i can fly to America in peace and wait for the next year. LOL...

& i dunno why i feel so unappreciated and out these days...
maybe i am just nth... hahas..

once bitten, twice shy...

marriage is like a gamble..unless u are the banker, do not take the risk.
love was everlasting...


maybe, life is an irony itself.

叶子在窗外轻轻爷
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果叶子
爱情是个梦而我睡过头


tired.
at least i thrown away all those burdens....
midyrs, my past, my reports and all the crap stuff..

here, i hope to wish mr Choy all the best, though i know he will not see...
but i love him!! he really rocks big time!
one of the most inspiring teacher i have met, u know.. after what he said, i really feel like going overseas... AHH...no money...
take care and remember, 5J LOVES you!

now is PW time, hopefully it goes well... we will not let mr choy down. -fingers crossed-

i dunno why, i have loads of plan for post A-levels..hahas..
i really want to finish my life..... blah...

i know how disgusting i can get nowadays...please forgive me><>
something got into me...=)

tata ppl. stay happy.
quote for the day: life is like a bubble, it burst in the end, but how big your life becomes before u go, depends on you=)
by cLp



其实，有一个人在你开心的时候跟你分享你的快乐；笑得肚子痛的时候有人跟你说要注意形象；伤心的时候有人帮你擦眼泪；看集结号的时候有人抱住你说：“傻瓜，这只是一场电影”；在你难过、快要崩溃的时候有人坐在你的旁边，安静地陪伴你；在你纳闷的时候有人说笑豆你开心；有人放弃自己的筷子让你先吃饭；每天等你一起回家、陪你上学；吃饭的时候会把好吃的给你吃；一起唱歌；不时唠叨，要你早些睡、要放轻松；知道有这么一个人永远把你放在第一位，呵护你、疼你、照顾你....
我想，大家都觉得这个人一定是你的男朋友、女朋友吧？其实我不以为然。到最后，爱情怎么能比得上父母对你的爱。为什么我们长大后就被爱情的幻想给蒙蔽了？为什么我们不能回想一下我们跟父母的美好时光？我现在回想，我觉得我最开心的时候是跟我家人一起的时间，躺在爸爸的怀中，听哥哥说笑、看姐姐跳舞、望着永远那么可爱的妈妈...好想回到那时哦。可是时间真得很残忍，现在长大了才发现、才知道珍惜。

呵呵，我最爱的歌。

-removed- sorry lerae, if you wanna hear it? hahas


不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。哈哈...现在的年轻人口中的话，口是心非。得不到永远就说这番话来自我安慰，好可怜哦。

i dunno why i am here again...
hi people, i was super touched by slumdog millionaire....
i suddenly feel like going to India to study...lol...
Jamal, you are my idol!
discrimination in India is so evident and real...this movie is such a intersting depiction, albeit it may be limited.
i seriously encourage u people to watch if you haven't..
not only about the impact of media..but also the reflection of disrimination of the "slumdog".
why can't he win 10 million away?

=)))
=((((
when i thought about sec 3 and sec4 trip to china...
i realised one very big difference is...
how i had to be on my own. freedom? loneliness?
i dunno why i just had this surge of nolstagia...
but it is so subtle...it hurts.
maybe u dont care, maybe no one cares, that's why it hurts.
wad a facade. who cares about those not in the picture...how realistic, how cruel...
memories...it is up to u to decide if it's white and black or grey...

you and me are like our spoilt blog. white. blank.
it hurts...really...