ME!

2011-02-22T07:43:00.000-08:00

im wallowing in self pity... F*CK!

2011-02-22T07:31:00.001-08:00

actually i think fb is a place that stresses people.. crap

2011-02-01T18:40:00.000-08:00

happy cny eve...
whilst it is a festive season here in Singapore, ppl are suffering elsewhere in Australia, Eygpt, zimbawe, china blah blah...
i wonder how we can actually celebrate without considering their plight; are we heartless creatures? are we bombarded with too much statistics such that we are apathetic/ immune/ indifference/ callous to the deaths and hunger of the unfortunate?
never eat too full, u will get complacent. i think we all have to remind ourselves how fortunate we are to be even able to breathe the fresh air and enjoy our reunion dinner. Sometimes, undergoing some difficult times is a far cry from the constant torture of hunger/ disenfranchised/ repression.....

to him: i just wanna say, i remember helaoshi told me before that everyone is born like a jigsaw puzzle, and there is only 1 other who can fit into your life, just like how jigsaw puzzles are complementary. i thought he was the one, but no.... i dont know if u're the one.... and i dont want to get into another period of misery. sorry...

2011-01-31T19:32:00.000-08:00

man, i am really beginning to know what type of person i am. Despite much self denial throughout these years, i have to admit that i am someone who gets influenced easily by others, and I am a VERY VERY pessimistic person with little confidence in myself... well, i think this mentality is kiling me, but i really cant seem to change it. admittedly, i do relish in moments of pride when i do well in exams, but that's about it. beyond academics, and i seriously doubt my A level results .... I always think i am worthless... am i?? i always think...

now, i am in the midst of waiting for the results of 3 events,
1st: MFA rejection letter..
2nd: USP results
3rd: Peking university results..
and the wait is really killing me. never once had i felt so bad to escape from reality... nvr once did i really doubt my existence and worth... but now, all of these emotions are swamping my mind, my limbs, my head, my heart, my skin, my nose, my tears, my everything. but i cant tell anyone....

i am no weakling... what a lie...

2011-01-30T18:43:00.000-08:00

These are the paragraphs in the news about Egypt and Cambodia that aroused my interest actually.

Mubarak, who sacked his cabinet on Friday after a nationwide revolt, also said the new prime minister's priority was restricting unemployment and creating new jobs. Mubarak has struggled to placate a nation angry at his three decades of autocratic rule with token gestures such as sacking the government.

I think what is the most fundamental accomplishment for a government is acheive economical progress for the country and improvement of living standard for the people. However, this role is based on the assumption that the government is seen as the legitimate figure of authority, whom everyone is willing to be led by. In this case, I feel that perhaps the it is inappropriate to set the priority on augmenting the economy amid of a domestic uproar and chaos, targetted to overthrow the leaders. It is not being practical nor dealing with the root problem. Even if the crowd is repressed to gain back stability now, it will only be contrived peace which will one day spiral into more devastating disaster and upheaval. Although I believe that some form of control in a developing nation is necessary, I am against an autocratic rule which helps to sustain a corrupted and incompetent government. Merely sacking the government without resolving the problem -- the leader and the mentality/ system, is like removing only a colony of bacteria from an agar plate and leaving the rest to fester.

If we were to look at the situation in China, also a developing and "autocratic" country, it seems that China is performing better. But, I beg to differ. China is going to face a conundrum maybe even worse than Eygpt if she does not alleviate the situation of corruption, aggravating rich-poor gap and repression of political voice. It is just that things seem to be rosier in China because in the past 30 years, the rate of improvement of most Chineses' lives is so tremendous that the people see little reason to overthrow this government and return to their poor destitute lives. However, in tandem with advancement of living standards, is an awareness on political rights, human rights etc. With the help of the Internet, burgeoning educated netizen are also using the Net as a platform to express their disatisfaction for the government.

I did my IS on the corruption in China, and it is reported that China loses billions to corruption ever year. And, the social divisiveness is exacerbating with increasing hatred for the rich and advantaged. Social unity and fabric will eventually tearing apart when the contrast between the rich and poor is further amplified. Considering that the netizens in China is growing and has even exceeded the 4.5 billion mark, there is all reasons to believe that this awareness (as mentioned above) will promulgate to more and more citizens. Eventually, there would be a substantial number of people sufficient to create a chaos, far more devastating and polemic that the chaos in

Washington, a key ally of Egypt, called on Mubarak to do more to defuse the crisis but stopped short of saying he should quit.But President Barack Obama also voiced support for "an orderly transition to a government that is responsive to the aspirations of the Egyptian people," in calls to regional leaders on Saturday, the White House said.

US military aid to Egypt amounts to $1.3 billion a year, and the total American aid bill to the country averages close to $2 billion annually.

CAMBODIA
Prime Minister Hun Sen, 59, who has vowed to remain in power until he is 90, recently said on national radio that his aim was "not just to weaken the opposition, but to make it die".The comment was the latest in a string of outbursts against critics, prompting fears that freedoms are under threat as the government looks ahead to local polls next year and a general election in 2013."

The space for dissent has shrunk to the point where people are gasping for air," said Mathieu Pellerin of local rights group Licadho."Vast areas of political debate have been effectively declared off-limits. The most minor venture into these fenced-off topics can bring the authorities' wrath, whether you are a prominent politician or an anonymous village farmer."

Mark Turner, a Cambodia expert at the University of Canberra, said the legacy of the country's recent bloody history has allowed the ruling party to tighten its grip on power."One of the leading themes of post-Khmer Rouge Cambodia has been the search for stability," he said. "If incomes are rising, education improving, health facilities more accessible, then people may accept a certain curtailment of freedoms."

Cambodia remains haunted by its past, after decades of civil war and the brutal 1975-1979 Khmer Rouge regime that left up to two million dead in its bid to forge a communist utopia.Cambodian independent analyst Chea Vannath said it was important to recognise how far the nation had come considering its "terrible past".Hun Sen, who has ruled since 1985, has been credited with the country's long spell of peace and stability, while also improving infrastructure and opening up the country's markets.But he also has a history of riding roughshod over his rivals, and analysts say the CPP -- bolstered by a 2008 election landslide -- has exerted executive power without limits.It is now a crime to criticise judges or public officials under a new penal code that activists say could be used as a government tool to muzzle freedom of expression."Impunity is deepening for government power-holders and their cronies to abuse rights," said Human Rights Watch deputy Asia director Phil Robertson.

http://forum.brightsparks.com.sg/showthread.php?t=319&page=3

2011-01-27T18:55:00.001-08:00

i'm officially back to my blogging!

i know this is abit late to write my 2011 resolutions, but as the old adge goes, "better late than never" ( an abiding belief of mine )

in the new year of 2011, after the tormenting 6 years of MUGGING, i decided that I need a change in lifestyle and mentality.

1. a revelation: the world is full of possibilities, i should not limit myself to the conventional path to go. here, i wish to share this quote that i remember from my trip to NY:
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. Ralph Waldo Emerson
Personally, i feel a bit sad for myself. I never dared to dream big nor imagine becoming someone different. Conformity is my comfort zone, lying low and camoflaging into the crowd were the safest thing to do. Alas, I am what I do--the ordinary plain jane.
So.... my first resolution: to believe in myself and the things i can do, do something BIG!

2. 2010 has been a very stressful and painful year, having been "forced" to decide on what I want to do and study, blah blah. For a happy-go-lucky me, I simply chucked these series of decision making moments to the very end.... and I regretted doing it. PROCRASTINATION is my nemesis! and what ensued from hasty decisions when nearing the deadline are stress, unhappiness and pain.
actually the main point is... i made the wrong decision, deceiving myself about my genuine character and dived at the wrong path. And i trace this mistake to my unwillingness to face up to reality, procrastinating and the propensity to listen to others.
my second resolution: FACE UP TO REALITY, dont be an "escaptist" / CARPE DIEM!

my thrid resolution: FIND MY OWN VOICE AND LISTEN TO MY HEART! dont be led by others nor be influenced by what others say.

3. I am here to seek my own forgiveness... sorry for giving up on myself when i slipped into moments of complacency and dejectedness, falling into an abyss of pessimism and hopelessness.
I can only say, I let my myself down, I let my family and the teachers who had pinned hopes on me down. I have erred...

my forth resolution: gain back the self-discipline i once possessed and find back the motivation to excel! not merely being competent or patronising, but acheive excellence!

4. on a linguistic note ( haha..) I need to learn my English and Mandarin well, not just my writing skills, but my communication skills. I really hate it to stutter and feel unconfident when I speak.
Besides the two 19-year-old language I have started learning, I want to pick up cantonese, probably via dramas and songs. I hope to converse with my parents in dialect!

my fifth resolution: master my languages!

5. my sixth resolution: be meticulous! develop the skills of a Singaporean diplomat! (because I think diplomats are very respectable for their obsession for details...sth I lack i reckon)

2009-12-14T14:47:00.000-08:00

I just returned from NY ...woo...
going for dance later so I decided to post this entry before I leave.

there are some days unwritten either because I was too tired or I was too sad over the loss of my wallet. Oh well, I will treat it as a lesson learnt.

here are my daily reflections:

Day 1:

One word to describe my first trip to new york: wow….

I don’t know if wow is a neutral word or not, but to me, it has both positive and negative meaning, so I shall change it to “wow”. America is really different from what I see on movies, series darma or TV. I guess sometimes, media really distort the real thing.

Anyway,I was rather excited to come NY. I thought on my way, will I return to Singapore wanting to study in NY? Will I want to wear the “I love NY”shirt? Hahas… but things didn’t not turn out the way it seems….

First, the freaking long hours on the plane. Argh butt hurts and stomache bloated. Please, can you imagine eating your meals and sitting down right after your meals? But I must say the food is quite nice except fo4r the omelette with spinach. To desmond, I felt rather guilty after eating but…too bad. And I watched 5 and a half movies, namely, Speed, Dodgeball, the proposal, crow zero, and sth I forgot.

Then we had our transit from Doha, and I lost a ruler, lip balm , moisturizer and liquid paper. Haiz I was rather angry and felt indignant, but when I looked at the bigger picture: terrorism, I realised I was in the wrong too. So I guess…. A lesson learnt.

Then, the awfully long journey to NY. Slept and ate and slept and died… and finally we landed. But wad really caught my eye was that there was actually some sort of service for those who wanted to sit on wheelchair?! Errm… and it was like a commonplace in the airport? I guess it’s their culture and service or perhaps they needed the wheelchair? Then, what really stunned me was the seriousness in the airport during the custom. Quiet. Interrogation-like-conversation. Order. And yuxuan got called away. We were very worried then but it turned out to be some sort of random checks.

It was then did I realise how pathetic human have become. With globalization, we have welcomed openbordered-ness, economical benefits like free trade, lower tariffs and an augment in the knowledge of the world beyond what we call home. Yet at the same time, we expose ourselves to more and more danger. Terrorism is one. Indeed, America is one of the big powers economically, politically and culturally, yet it faces one of the most threatening dangers that haunt her ceaselessly. It is really a pity how a warm country like America with nice and sincere people has to undertake such strong security and stringent checks that really puts people off. It is a total contrast from what the movie America depicts. The atmosphere at the customs was really tense until it kind of hurts… I don’t know how to describe. I’m just lamenting…

Next, it was a long ride to Boston…. Sitting again… and sleeping ><>

And I headed home.

Day 2:

Marvelous breakfast and we saw Singaporeans, or rather we heard them. The Singaporean accent— familiar. After which we started our tiring yet exciting yet challenging journey.

First stand Harvard! I must say, the feel there was indeed worthy of my trip. The place was beautiful. Buildings built in warm red brick with wonderful people everywhere and just the atmosphere, wow. It makes me wanna come to Harvard. Oh man, can I ever achieve this dream of mine?

Then we stop at some random places like a shipyard, then I thought “hahas, dad would love this place”. And we went quincy market for lunch and I saw a lot of nice clothes and nice food! Argh, there goes my diet but I don’t regret eating the claw chowda, dam dam nice and cheap lo 2USD! If I ever live in Boston, I would really get fat from all of the heavenly and sinful dishes.

After which, we went MIT for a guided tour. It was then did I realised how inferior I am yet how I need to realise my dream. There was this man who is holding a paper writing “free smile” and “free happiness”. Though at first I felt that it was so funny, I realised how meaningful it is, bring smiles and happiness to people around us. I really hope I can be that source of happiness for my friends and family. Indeed, MIT is made up of people of interesting people. Miss chitra said how MIT not only wants smart people, but people with character and special interest. I guess the man is one. Then I thought, I am just a normal person, how do I ever become a special person? But I felt stupid thinking this way… why must I force myself tobe a special person? I am special myself and I should really aim to be what I am. No point pretending to be someone and end up with nothing but a life of hypocrisy. BUT… just saying won’t bring us far, I really need a lot of hard work and determination to even have that prerequisite. And it means I need to start now. Looking back, I realised how I am deceiving myself. Thinking that I am good enough and complacent with what I have.. OMG, how disgusting… and the tour guide we saw was so humble when she said she did fairly for her SAT?! Then, inferiority yet determination came surging… hahas I need this motivation! I need to remember this feeling, so Here I am blogging about it.. hahas. PLEASE YIHUI, REMEMBER THIS FEELING!

In the morning, we had a girls talk. Hahas, I think it feels better saying out. I just want to say “thanks leon, but I guess you need someone else besides me. I wish you happiness=)”. For me, I just wanna love myself and indulge myself in my family love and friends love. Hehex, I love u and my singlehood! Hahas.

Day 3:

My FIRST day.

First day I ever ate mac in USA,
First day I ever saw snow!!
First day I ever sleep in a 8-beds room, bathe in a NY girls PINK hostel…

Hahas, today is tired but it is a new experience. I was even thinking, how lucky I am to actually have a toilet by my own and even have a toilet bowl with a bathetub. Lol.

Day 4
today was an extremely fruitful day.

In the morning, me shuyun liling and sherry went to get breakfast for everyone. Turkey cold cut egg cheese roll. YUMMY! But I couldn’t finish. Then, we started our walking tour. First, we drove through harlem. Through the drive, I reflected on how the blacks in America been through much and how they had tried to make best of what they already have. For instance hotel Theresa is an epitome of how the black were discriminated but found an alternative to lodgings through their own means.

Then Linda, our walking tour guide told us how Janet Jacob mentioned that the eyes of the healthy street should be diverse and vibrancy. (not sure if I heard wrongly) hence, NY gradually become a place not only for work or play only but a amalgamation of both. I guess

Security restrain: it has made me ponder upon the effects of terrorism along Wall Street and NY city. Shouldn’t NY be a place of freedom and creativity and welcome people with open arms? Why it is that now people are restricted to enter places like the Federal Reserve and NY stock exchange? Haiz, it is many opportunities lost to learn and experience for people like me. It would be really cool to be able to enter those places… I just Linda, like us is also lamenting over such regulations.

To know facts: why World trade centre’s progress has been delayed all these while:
1) it is a super complicated site/ project
2) it is politically complicated to resolve all of the conflicts
3) insurance issue
4) familt of victims sometimes have things to comment over the building of WTC
5) due to economy paradigm shift, people do not want to build excessive/ superfluous buildings that cannot be sold.
6) and…when remains are found while digging, everything comes to an halt

Also, I can really feel how cosmopolitan NY is. From the graffiti along the wall, drawings on the floor the plethora of people from all around the world and how people with weird appearance and weird doings are able to assimilate into the streets…I can truly feel how is NY different from others states like Boston and even Singapore. Then it sparks upon me that as much as Singapore government wants Singapore to become cosmopolitan and globalised, sometimes traditions and culture in Singapore has impeded this transformation. Though Singapore may be ranked the most globalised city and economically and financially one of the most accessible and convenient country, in terms of cultural integration and individuality and maturity of a society, Singapore definitely pales in comparison….

And I lost my retainer…Boo….

From now onwards, Shuyun shall become my official ROLE MODEL. I will learn from her discipline and reflective attitude as well as her perserverance! I shall, aim to do something that challenges these 3 aspects everyday!! Anyway, my role model Shuyun was teaching me new vocabs in the night, here are some:

Perfunctory = obligatory or unthinking

Evince = show demonstrate

Evocative place = a place that evokes the feelings or bring happy memories to people

Consummate = accomplished, skillful

Profligate= extravagant,

Assiduous= dilligent

Recondite/obscure/murky/covert= difficult to understand, esoteric, clandestine, secret

Overt= obvious

Transient/fleeting=

Tacit = unspoken, implicit

Bulwark= earthwork, fortification, rampant

piquant= strong

America should be the bulwark of inchoate democracy to other nations.

And thanks shuyun for the present, the 心意我收到了.=)

REMEMBER THE FEELING YIHUI！

Day 5

Today we went Empire State building and I did the most unexpected thing of me, and that is to ask 2 strangers to take photos with me, one beautiful lady and one security guard Hahas. I guess wanted to challenge myself. But I’m glad I did it in the end.

Then we went MACY’s and tried loads of clothes. Oops! But I did not buy anything because I can’t bear to, but tomorrow I will (I wrote this on day 6 because I was too lazy today). It was great experience to shop but it sucks… when my legs ache like shit.

Anyway, I was remember that I dint comment on the Subway. Pictures speak better than words.

NBC was awesome.

Day 6

Today, I had an awesome day! It was really an eye opener. But as much as I like it, I felt like I was an embarrassment. First, we went to Coloumbia University and I heard that they have a reknown and established medical faculty with private employers. Oh man, I am so tempted to try getting into Coloumbia too, but I reckon that everything should be decided with my A levels because to study in Coloumbia, I need up to 25000 USD each term (7 month), excluding my living cost. I don’t want to burden my parents with my overly expensive tuition fees.

Then we went to Singapore office for the UN and discussed about pertinent issues regarding Singapore’s, US’s and China’s role in UN. There were a few issues we touched on and I hoped to share or sort out my thoughts better. Here are my notes

1) Aim of Security Council is to maintain international peace and promote cooperation in solving international economic, social and humanitarian problems. But the definition of threat has not reached a consensus because one’s threat to another maybe a norm to another. Especially to one of the 5 permanent member of the Security Council, the ability to veto is to be treasured yet it can be questionable on the use of it. Though it allows big powers to have to prevent them from entering war, it sometimes hinders the translation of resolution into actions. For instance, the

2) The effectiveness of resolutions: sometimes they are like recommendations for people to refer to and use as pressure points to pressurize countries to change. They do not have their immediate effects but in the long run, they will push people to improve and realise. Hence, it is morally useful and influential.

3) The guiding and principled value all boils down to the national interest of each country. This is actually true for a lot of things today. Also I feel that the awesome people we met today are trying their best to protect our interest

4) Singapore’s relevance to UN.
Yes, we are small. Very small. But for our size, we are probably one of the most influential countries. All these to some extent hinges on our ability to be the middle man and bridge, as well as our highly regarded reputation for our sensible, pragmatic and principled voice and say @ an honest broker. Often, we do things in a subtle manner without much fanfare, (things like peacekeeping, giving our say and advices, being a member in the Security Council and even our stand that is a compromisation of the dichotomy between East and West/ rich and poor/ hard-line and liberal etc…) and say few but heavy (weight) words. I learnt that we must always keep ourselves in an advantaged and friendly arbitration(adjudication, negotiation, ) role, such that when times come, we can be heard for our opinions such as the Pedra Branca issue.

5) However, we need to concede that we are a success story for only what we are worth. Acknowledging our strategic lack of depth and capabilities is imperative and incontrovertibly necessary for constant improvement. Jonathan made us realised how vulnerable and sometimes insignificant Singapore is in face of big powers and giants like US and China, even like our neighbors, Malaysia and Indonesia.

hard-line [an uncompromising or unyielding stand, esp. in politics]

Repressed = self-conscious, reserved

6) CSC!! China’s diplomatic, cautious and careful steps taken to build diplomatic ties with neighbors, especially with UN and US. After all, it does not wants to tread onto danger waters yet hopes to try its luck to challenge its prerogative.

7) Analogy: when 2 elephants make war, the grass is trampled; when 2 elephants make love, the grass is also trampled. When 2 big powers are involved in anything, everyone is affected. Hence, to ensure peace, it is best for big powers to do nothing?

8) Poverty! A GP topic
what is poverty? 40% below GDP average? Then does it mean that there will forever be poverty? 1 billion people were living in poverty 20 years ago and today the number remains. Does this means that the situation has not improved? Or is it that the percentage of poor people has decreased? Is eradication of poverty a “should” or a “can”?
To me, eradicating poverty is a moral imperative more than an obligation. Human nature is sometimes hideous, (人不为己，天诛地灭) and the campaign to eradicate poverty becomes a motherhood statement and adopts an overtly high handed one. Also, as much as poverty is undesirable, the presence of these groups of impoverished people actually propels developed nations’ economy and provides cheap labour, material and a source of “exploitation”. When one’s vested interest is at stake, developed nations would probably hope to first care for their economy and societal development over helping the downtrodden people improve their lives. Nonetheless, it is quite against the moral and conscious to watch people suffer when one has the abilities to remediate and alleviate their sufferings.
Hence, there is consensus on the global platform to eliminate poverty and hunger. NGOs and developed countries do their part by providing financial help and manpower, albeit a little short in impact. This could be due to firstly corruption. Secondly, the lack of proper management of money and implementation.

Oh dear I am getting tired from all these thought provoking

9) Lower common denominator.

And I spent a lot of money today but I bought Huangyao’s present and 2 necklace for me? Or for my friends? Hahas..

- I’m too lazy to continue. argh

Hahas, me and shuyun shared each other weakness and here are my weaknesses:
1) insensitive to people’s feelings and lack of social awareness=( which I agree.

2) forgetful of things

3) ask weird questions that people are uncomfortable to reply = is that nosey?

And many more.

Oh dear, looks like I have a lot to improve =)

Day 7:

One word: tiring. Another word: worth-it!

The museums are amazing seriously and they make me feel so culturally educated, as if I would become more artistic just looking at them. Hahas. A pity I did not take much photos.

Also, I have another resolution and that is to speak proper English from now on and I will start small. And that is to speak in proper sentences as well as pronounce the end of my words properly, especially the “t”, “d”, “l” +)

Alrights I am exciting for tomorrow and is tired for the day tata.

Day 8:

I am writing this post now because I though that the metting with Miss Prema should be shared. She inspired me to found out who I am and to reconsider the direction of my life. No words can describe that moment when I decided to do something to my life. hahas... =)

2009-11-29T21:07:00.000-08:00

hahas, nice song, please listen...

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close to reaching
That famous happy ending
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

2009-11-29T09:40:00.000-08:00

it's 0140 now... I dunno wad made me come here. nostalgia? or mere frustration? with a tinge of excitement with anger. what a complicated mood to have on a lonely morning... hahas.

I guess it's really time to see what I have accomplished in this year and what i have lost.. but dont worry, no whinings and rantings on this blog; I'll save it for my next yahtc trip=)

I just wish to say, many of us often unconsciously put ourselves before anyone else yet blatantly lie through our teeth that we care for others and want to help. Oh please, get over with your seemingly selfsacrificial thought and live in reality. I admit, I am such a person, but i will try to change? at least, first I will start with my family ... man, this sounds whiny.. PS its pure 100% crap=), well at least you bother to read><

just some lyrics.=)
写信告诉我今天，海是什么颜色？
夜夜陪著你的海，心情又如何？
灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁。
而漂泊的你，狂浪的心，停在哪里？

写信告诉我今夜，你想要梦什么？
梦里外的我是否都让你无从选择？
我揪著一颗心，整夜都闭不了眼睛。
为何你明明动了情，却又不靠近？

听，海哭的声音！
叹惜著谁又被伤了心，却还不清醒！
一定不是我，至少我很冷静。
可是泪水，就连泪水，也都不相信！
听，海哭的声音！这片海未免也太多情，悲泣到天明！
写封信给我，就当最後约定。
说你在离开我的时候，是怎样的心情！

lastly, highly recommended:

2009-10-18T05:57:00.001-07:00

it is just a random post today...
had class outing and was seriously sun burnt... hehex..
i must say... sentosa is a place for bot babes and guys.. and noobs like us.
volleyball was fun though the sand was terrible.
and LJJ... u are dam poor thing. hahas...

actually after all of the tests and this whole year... i learnt alot and thought through a lot...
maybe when i am free i really pen down everything...

for now... i just wanna get over wid my physics olympiad, chem olympiad, SRP, and PW.... hahas... then i can fly to America in peace and wait for the next year. LOL...

& i dunno why i feel so unappreciated and out these days...
maybe i am just nth... hahas..

2009-07-31T20:06:00.000-07:00

once bitten, twice shy...

marriage is like a gamble..unless u are the banker, do not take the risk.
love was everlasting...

maybe, life is an irony itself.

2009-07-08T01:52:00.000-07:00

叶子在窗外轻轻爷
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果叶子
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

tired.
at least i thrown away all those burdens....
midyrs, my past, my reports and all the crap stuff..

here, i hope to wish mr Choy all the best, though i know he will not see...
but i love him!! he really rocks big time!
one of the most inspiring teacher i have met, u know.. after what he said, i really feel like going overseas... AHH...no money...
take care and remember, 5J LOVES you!

now is PW time, hopefully it goes well... we will not let mr choy down. -fingers crossed-

i dunno why, i have loads of plan for post A-levels..hahas..
i really want to finish my life..... blah...

i know how disgusting i can get nowadays...please forgive me><>
something got into me...=)

tata ppl. stay happy.
quote for the day: life is like a bubble, it burst in the end, but how big your life becomes before u go, depends on you=)
by cLp

2009-06-23T00:40:00.000-07:00

其实，有一个人在你开心的时候跟你分享你的快乐；笑得肚子痛的时候有人跟你说要注意形象；伤心的时候有人帮你擦眼泪；看集结号的时候有人抱住你说：“傻瓜，这只是一场电影”；在你难过、快要崩溃的时候有人坐在你的旁边，安静地陪伴你；在你纳闷的时候有人说笑豆你开心；有人放弃自己的筷子让你先吃饭；每天等你一起回家、陪你上学；吃饭的时候会把好吃的给你吃；一起唱歌；不时唠叨，要你早些睡、要放轻松；知道有这么一个人永远把你放在第一位，呵护你、疼你、照顾你....
我想，大家都觉得这个人一定是你的男朋友、女朋友吧？其实我不以为然。到最后，爱情怎么能比得上父母对你的爱。为什么我们长大后就被爱情的幻想给蒙蔽了？为什么我们不能回想一下我们跟父母的美好时光？我现在回想，我觉得我最开心的时候是跟我家人一起的时间，躺在爸爸的怀中，听哥哥说笑、看姐姐跳舞、望着永远那么可爱的妈妈...好想回到那时哦。可是时间真得很残忍，现在长大了才发现、才知道珍惜。

呵呵，我最爱的歌。

-removed- sorry lerae, if you wanna hear it? hahas

不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。哈哈...现在的年轻人口中的话，口是心非。得不到永远就说这番话来自我安慰，好可怜哦。

2009-05-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

i dunno why i am here again...
hi people, i was super touched by slumdog millionaire....
i suddenly feel like going to India to study...lol...
Jamal, you are my idol!
discrimination in India is so evident and real...this movie is such a intersting depiction, albeit it may be limited.
i seriously encourage u people to watch if you haven't..
not only about the impact of media..but also the reflection of disrimination of the "slumdog".
why can't he win 10 million away?

=)))
=((((
when i thought about sec 3 and sec4 trip to china...
i realised one very big difference is...
how i had to be on my own. freedom? loneliness?
i dunno why i just had this surge of nolstagia...
but it is so subtle...it hurts.
maybe u dont care, maybe no one cares, that's why it hurts.
wad a facade. who cares about those not in the picture...how realistic, how cruel...
memories...it is up to u to decide if it's white and black or grey...

you and me are like our spoilt blog. white. blank.
it hurts...really...

2009-05-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

I FEEL STUPID....

walking around like a big dummy, with gastric and until my feet blister burst....
just for ur present... yet all I got was minimal response...
thanks man...

i guess this is the difference between me and her. thanks.
i wanna get sick too......mummy..... LOL

screwed up physics i must say..loads of hw to do somemore...
CSC rehearsal on mon and real thing on Wed
Independent study research
write up on the speaker
PW research and brainstorming
collation of information
physics tutorial and assignment
chemistry tutorial and assignment
maths tutorial and assignment
GP rewrite AQ???OMG
olympiad qns to catch up...i will nvr finish them....
SRP 40 ++ pages to read
PMG to approve and CIP to follow up
new project for NCC. LOL

and GP MID YEARS!!

ARGH...and there's u!

wad a screwed up life.

man..this feels better.

ok, i shall start on my hw..hope i finish everything by the datelines. =)
life starts AFRESH!!

POST SYF

2009-04-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

hmm...
i have finally come here to post...
it's now post syf period, a time to take a break from dance and a mugging time for my studies...
hmm... tired is the word to describe my physical. touched is the most apt word to describe my feelings...
here, i wanna thanks all of my dance people for givng me such wonderful memories....
all the practises and hardwork we put in, all the laughter and smiles with every good practise and cheers we received, all the photos we have taken. LOL, i really kinda miss those times...ironic how i once wished it would be over soon hur...
man, i feel so regretful for not bonding wid u guys the last 4 years, but i guess it is only the last 4 months of syf that anyone did feel that special togetherness among us.

i just wanna say:" I LOVE YOU GUYS! you all were the reason why i walked so far, you all were the reason why i manage to keep my spirits up throughout the down period...

i am just disappointed that i didn't go all out for my last sfy...man....my ever last syf. i feel like crying..but i guess the strongest feeling was duing the dance when i nearly cried, and didn't balance..ARGH!!

you know...when i say i dun mind, actually i do=) nvr believe wad a girl says, course u nvr know when it's true, nvr believe guys because they nvr tell the truth=)

2009-04-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

im in such a dilemna now...
SRP? BSP? dance? or my school work?
i suddenly feel so stressed and feel like screaming out loud....
why is it my future seems to be in a messs?
why isit i dun know wad i am heading for?

why is it i carn find anyone to talk to?
would anyone know how i feel?
maybe yea, it's nth. just do it??? but...
i
cannot....

have u ever have that feeling that, u are just that worthless.....?
i feel it now=(
please save me....

2009-02-28T05:41:00.001-08:00

life is just getting more and more tiring....
iamsosorry.....

please, dont turn bad.....
sigh...

2009-02-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

dearest diary..

i'm supposed to be doing my report now...but i am slacking..
i dunno why this year i lost all my motivation to study, yet all my friends are so mug.?
i dunno why i have become like this?
maybe this is really wad mr see said"Ï have lost my momentum?"
hahas...

anyway, i feel quite apologetic to my dance friends..
cz i think i dance super ugly now... alot of steps i carn do properly...
and syf is coming up...we need to buck up.
but before i say anything, i need to buck up myself =)
must jiayou! and perservere....
tmr is morning run, wish me good luck.
i really wan to dance well...but i have coordination problems and ballet hands... and all the weird stuff...
so ppl, correct or scold me for all the mistakes i did... i am so sorry for pulling the dance down..

and.......
i am recovering..=)

2009-01-07T16:27:00.000-08:00

dearest diary...

today is 8jan and i have finally saved my blog from the dying.
hahas. i am so sorry for not updating but i am really dam sian everyday.
so i am gonna update on these few days..

on monday 5Jan
we had dance outing...
at plaza singapura.
at first we wanted to watch Ponyo but due to some disagreements and hipcups that occured...
plans were changed.
so we went to play pool at some weird place.
me shuhui erjie mil LJJ and KC were under the NOOB category. LOL
but KC and LJJ were totally talented. OMG....
and they won, so they graduated. hahas.
but i have to say it was a fun experience because alot of us had "air shots" and did unexpected noob stuff. hahas. i'll see if i can upload photos. hahas
but in the end i improved alrights...but shuhui is still the most pro (out of the noobs><>

on tuesday 6jan
DANCE PRAC!!
nothing much to say, except that my techniques really drop from bad to worse. HAIX...
this is wad 8 weeks of no dance prac to do u.
something worth mentioning...
the sec1s this year dont seem as enthu about dance as those the sec1s last year aka sec2s
i guess it is the pattern. one year enthu, next year not. or maybe only last year was the exception. OOops...

on wednesday 7Jan
i received a call from jianglaoshi to do a ppt on 新中国for our classmates.
man! so the 7 scholars met at JE library to do it.
from 1120 to 2 plus, we crapped through it.
i must say it is quite weird for us to "present " to our classmates because we are no much better than them >.<>

on thursday 8jan
hahas. i have came back from my eeyores outing.

deadbeat and in pain.

i finally pierced my ear...wow...

and we have settled everyone's bday present except for karin LOL

for further information, please refer to haeiounny.blogspot.com for more details.

and i have to do my ppt le...but i am too lazy to start..hehex><

yihui

2009-01-02T02:45:00.001-08:00

dearest diary...

today is a super bad day cz i met him.
haiz....it just seems not long ago.
memories surge. hearbeat. laughters and cries...
how many times i told myself to let go....
in a second, my heart faltered...fluttered. sinked.
GET OVER IT!

i went home and emoed.. LOL
i swear it shall be my last time....maybe not.?
i was thinking..actually how many ppl hates me? how many ppl thinks i am irritating ?
when i talk to ppl, their replies, their actions, their glares and stares make me wonder...
i guess thick-skinned is the answer.. maybe i have become such a thick skinned person so subconsciously.
but i guess this is part of life: to grow up, to realise and to become someone different.
should i lament over my change? NO, i will face up to it just has i faced reality.
irritating i shall be.

going bugis tmr.
to get dance stuff. anyone needs dance shoes or tights?
hahas seems idiotic to ask here. LOL

`yihui

2009-01-01T06:13:00.001-08:00

i changed my blogskin cz something went wrong...haiz....
anyway, i just ate ichiban sushi and i am dam full.....
DARN my diet plan has foiled.

anyway, keep fingers crossed that tmr will go well.
><

2008-12-31T06:45:00.000-08:00

dearest diary...

HAPPY NEW YEAR PeePPO....
hahas. i wish all of us a happy 2009 with loads of fun and loads of HWs...LOL
hmm...actually i just wanted to spam on my blog..
but since i am here, i shall made known my new year resolutions!

firstly, I will become a more self-disciplined gal!
secondly, I will smile more!!
thirdly, i will try to be a "call a spade a spade" girl. LOL, so....i apologise if i offend anyone..
fourthly, i will improve on my presentation skills
fifth, I will gain SELF -CONFIDENCE!!!
six, work hard and play hard!

my wishes:
1. my family and I stay healthy and happy!
2. my life will be more fulfilling and meaningful
3. work hard for my goals!!

yihui`

2008-12-30T01:40:00.000-08:00

dearest diary...

　　一：陆游

　　红酥手，黄縢酒，满城春色宫墙柳。
　　东风恶，欢情薄，
　　一怀愁绪，几年离索，
　　错，错，错。
　　春如旧，人空瘦，泪痕红浥鲛绡透；
　　桃花落，闲池阁，
　　山盟虽在，锦书难托，
　　莫，莫，莫。
　　
译文：
红润柔软的手，捧出黄封的酒，满城荡漾着春天的景色，宫墙里摇曳着绿柳。东风多么可恶，把浓郁的欢情吹得那样稀薄，满怀抑塞着忧愁的情绪，离别几年来的生活十分萧索。回顾起来都是错，错，错！
　　红酥手，黄滕酒。满城春色宫墙柳。东风恶，欢情薄，一怀愁绪，几年离索。错，错，错！
　　美丽的春景依然如旧，只是人却白白相思得消瘦，泪水洗尽脸上的胭红，把薄绸的手帕全都湿透。满园的桃花已经凋落，幽雅的池塘也已干阁，永远相爱的誓言虽在，可是锦文书信靠谁投托。深思熟虑一下，只有莫，莫，莫！
　　春如旧，人空瘦，泪痕红浥鲛绡透。桃花落，闲池阁。山盟虽在，绵书难托。莫，莫，莫！

这是一个关于陆游和唐婉的爱情故事的诗。陆游看见已嫁给其他人的唐婉，心中满是激动却又万分无奈。我听见这个故事的时候非常感动。为什么以前的人就那么重视生孩子，难道“不孝为三，无后为大”就是颠扑不破的吗？我好恨陆游的母亲，为什么会拆散一对深爱着对方的人。难道爱情就那么不堪一击，就可以被人任意破坏？
以前竟又那么痴情的人，让我感动，但是又同时感叹，为什么现在如此痴情、如此纯洁、真诚的爱情却已烟消云散？为什么结了婚的情侣会说离婚就离婚？为什么男的要出去搞婚外情？为什么男的会移情别恋？我发誓，我不会原谅一脚踏两船的男人，自以为够聪明，可以享受两妻时代。呸！我鄙视你们，我讨厌你们！
但是…..
我相信，相信真爱的存在，但是我无奈，无奈真爱不会降临在我身边。

phrases to be refreshed: (some phrases that i learnt before but totally FORGOT)

a bare-faced lie: blatant lie
call the tune: to be incharged!
call a spade a spade: say exactly wad u mean, even if it gives offence. (wow, who can do this?)
a feather in your cap: an acheivement worth being proud of.

hahas. just being random.

yihui

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't moveI can't look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit aroundI can't let him win now
Though you should knowI've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it a;; before you go
Just so you know
It's gettin hard to Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit aroundI can't let him win now
Though you should knowI've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want toI just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here Been waitin here
Just so you knowThis feelings takin control Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit aroundI can't let him win now
Though you should knowI've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

2008-12-25T08:31:00.000-08:00

our xmas presents....

dearest diary...

today is the day after xmas...
and i had alot of fun on xmas and ate alot too. lolx.

for lunch, i had: turkey and ham with bread, potato baked with cheese and bacon, bbq spareribs, logcake. ALOT right? and i was dam full...

and guess wad..i gained 2kg right after lunch. OMG rights...hahas.

then i followed my family to play golf.
it is my conviction that i have NO talent in golf!
my family was laughing at my posture, especially my bro who said:"you know..golf is a sport and it is a very elegant sport, but u totally ruin it" BOOHOOOHOOO...
but i kept practising alright...now i can regurgitate the steps to take
first bend your knees slightly inwards. next, swing ur golf stick 90degrees and lock ur arm straight. take note, while swinging it up must not change ur posture and ur degree of bending. next, drop the weight of the golf stick,swing ur body and lock the other arm. make sure ur golf stick gently hits the golf ball.

but.....theory is always different from practical.
i kept having air ball and my posture is always wrong. sorry dad i failed u...hehex><>

reflections time...

i read sth on the book that says that some democratic countries like philipines may not surpass in terms of economic, social countries like China who are not democratic in name. Indeed, does being democractic or following the western system of government signify a prosperous and developed country? i beg to differ...

though China has failed(disappoint) us in aspects of food inspection and government corruption, but it has also played a very signficant role in reducing poverty. my sister always says i am baised towards China. maybe....but i really do feel that we should always consider the 国情of countries before coming to a conclusion or criticising the country.

"中国的成就除以十三亿就会变得很小，中国以看似简单的问题，乘13亿就会变得很严峻了".
dont you think this statement is so true? For China to solve problems, it is tantamount to singapore solving a problem 30times more serious than it is. so please people, before u all criticise china, think twice. thanks.

yihui`

-back in singapore.-

dearest diary...

i am back in Singapore already.

21/12 i went out for breakfast wid my family once i arrived in singapore. then i realised how much i miss the hawker centre in Singapore. hahas then i went home and started unpacking my luggage.... 2hrs later, i completed this stupid task!

then i started sorting out my presents and wraping the presents. hope my friends and dance teachers like them>< then i started watching my tv shows and slacking.....
lunch was at home and dinner was out. i miss Bukit Timah Market too. hahas. stayed up to 1am for my shows.

22/12 woke up at 10! and ate my breakfast. i think i am eating dam alot can. hahas. gonna gained back that little fats i lost.
LOL then i went to my ahma's house and i slept for 2 hrs. (carn believe it alrights) then i rushed to my dance xmas's party.
ate KFC chickens and PIZZA played Conga, Cranium and some other games. had loads of fun and laughed like darn alot. then i went home. hahas tmr i'm going to school for dance! i totally miss dance.
hope tmr sulaoshi will not scold me for missing so many dance prac oh ya i heard some stuff that happened in dance. i shall go back and see....hahas...nothing serious peeps. see ya i will update the pics someday

happy and sleepy.

2008-12-22T08:06:00.000-08:00

enjoy!

2008-12-22T07:52:00.000-08:00

-back in singapore.-

dearest diary...
i am back in Singapore already.

21/12
i went out for breakfast wid my family once i arrived in singapore.
then i realised how much i miss the hawker centre in Singapore. hahas
then i went home and started unpacking my luggage....
2hrs later, i completed this stupid task!
then i started sorting out my presents and wraping the presents.
hope my friends and dance teachers like them><
then i started watching my tv shows and slacking.....
lunch was at home and dinner was out.
i miss Bukit Timah Market too. hahas.
stayed up to 1am for my shows.

22/12
woke up at 10! and ate my breakfast.
i think i am eating dam alot can. hahas. gonna gained back that little fats i lost. LOL
then i went to my ahma's house and i slept for 2 hrs. (carn believe it alrights)
then i rushed to my dance xmas's party.
ate KFC chickens and PIZZA
played Conga, Cranium and some other games.
had loads of fun and laughed like darn alot.
then i went home. hahas

tmr i'm going to school for dance!
i totally miss dance. hope tmr sulaoshi will not scold me for missing so many dance prac
oh ya i heard some stuff that happened in dance.
i shall go back and see....hahas...nothing serious peeps.
see ya
i will update the pics someday

happy and sleepy.

2008-12-15T23:57:00.000-08:00

dearest diary...

i need to mug my report again and i have to scrimp!!
now i can only spent 160yuan for all my presents and bag and techan and my meals.
haiz it means i have to make sure i dont spent money.

anyway, it is 4 or 5 more days to HOME SWEET HOME!
hahas. i miss SINGAPORE!!!hahas

and i wanna thanks sherry, shuyun and luohui for helping me give out surveys, so i treated them to food.hehex. THANKS ALOT PEEPs

yihui
i need to mug! tata

2008-12-14T05:00:00.000-08:00

dearest diary,

today is 12dec.
me and sherry slept at about 1.30 i think and woke up at 6.30
i was super reluctant to wake up! but i forced myself to wake up.
lack of sleep is super cruel to a panda like me alright!
anyway, me sherry and liling climb up a hill ytd that consisted of 1000steps, and i bit my tongue along the way. dam painful!
then we stayed up till 12 to celebrate liling's bday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILING!! u are finally SIXTEEN, like ME!
hahas. and today we also bought a tiramisu for her.
hope she liked it!

today was pretty boring for me and i was pmsing these few days.
i hate it totally, here...i apologise to all those i ap-ed and dao-ed.
SORRY!
oh ya, i drink nu-er hong (16% alcohol)today. it taste a little bitter but i think it is ok.
next time i shall challenge something stronger.

6 more days to my home sweet home.
first thing i am gonna do is to hug my parents! and then eat my breakfast wid my parents and dad. then, i will sort out my luggage and prepare my presents. then i shall pack my room and plan my schedule! i darn hope there is extra dance practise for me. haiz....

and then i shall weigh myself. hahas. hope i got lighter, though i know it is aliitle impossible LOL.

thursday is movie day, friday is shopping day. sat is my icecream and nai cha day! hahas. all planned out man!
see you guys soon. and i hope my new class is fun! ><

yihui

2008-12-12T06:48:00.000-08:00

Dearest diary,
Today is 11 December, first dance pract…and I missed it. Sad but what can I do? Talked to shixiao and asked her about it, seems like the progress for dance and it seems to be pretty fine. Oh man, I darn wanna go for dance practice…

Anyway, on the lighter note, today I woke up at 11.12!! omg, I was totally shocked but I guess it is normal for someone who slept at 3 the previous night. We had like girls’ talk and we chatted a lot. I carn wait to be in my new class next year, hope there are some fun ppl who will create some laughter and memorable memories.

Oh ya I completed my report ytd and edited it before sending it. Hope my report is okie and I at least get a sliver, though I know mine really sucks compared to Yvonne’s, Luohui’s, Shuyun’s, Sherry’s, Liling’s and Grace’s because, mine really sucks. 不过，依我的性格，我会尽量make the best of wad I have.

Anyway, making this blog is really a sudden decision but since I finally make it, I should make full use of it. Hmm… so I have decided to write some opinions I have on some news I see everyday. As for today, I haven’t read any news, so I am gonna reflect on the terrotist attack in India. Firstly, I really think that the security in India really needs improvement. Like COME ON! The fact that you have been attacked by terrorist means that security has serious loopholes. Though undeniable, India is a country that is rising in aspects of economics, a truly responsible country is one that ensures that their people’s safety is ensured in the pursue of economic growth. Talking about this, I think that maybe we should reflect on the incident that happened in Singapore, the hunt for Mas Selamat. Honestly, to be a responsible country as stated above, I think all citizen really should play a part, and stay vigilant at all times. I guess this is what Singaporeans realized after this incident, BUT putting it to action is still another important step to do. Nonetheless, security still has to be tight as basic security.

Oh ya I suddenly remember about some issues we had last week in Nanjing. Some of us were argueing that the Japan should admit the mistakes that their ancestor had during world war 2. yea, I totally agree. I mean that, the Japanese who killed innocent citizens then were totally atrocious and I believe that we should admit to the mistakes we do. This may be an unglamorous history to Japan but admitting the existence of this happening is definitely necessary and it may win Japan more support, just like how the Australia minister was widely applaud for his bravery to apologize to the slaves for the mistakes that his ancestor commited. (but I am not really sure about the details, remind me to check it out!) However I heard from Allan Ho that if Japan were to apologise, they would have to pay a really huge sum of money and I think it would be devastating to Japan’s economy. No wonder they don’t want to admit. I guess at least they could acknowledge the history and educate their next generation not to commit the same mistakes?

Special note: I just wanna thanks all the scholars who helped me celebrate my bday and stayed up to ALMOST 12 hahas. The cake was nice and the keychain is very cute. Not to mention it is my first birthday present. And of cz, special thanks to my MUM DAD SIS KEL&KEN for ur bday smses. I know sx wanted to call me too so..thanks! Also, I must say that it is very stupid and irritating to have no msn especially on ur bday because no one can wish you except those around you. But it was really a very special bday. Thanks peepx! Finally, just to clear things up, me and him are over. It really has been a long time since I have feel so single and free. It’s time to enjoy my singlehood! WOO!!

Photos time!!

2008-12-12T03:03:00.000-08:00

this is my favourite nanjing room! liling taking photo too

shuyun says i look like shixiao. LOL do i?

can u believe this is made up of tealeaves???OMG rights

me in the police hat. man right? hahas

guess who is this scandalous pair hahas.

me and zhanglaoshi. hehex. i think i look somewhere else. hahas

my favourite food corner!

this super cute baby i saw. mr seetoh says he is gonna sketch her. Aww....

hahas. 3 noobs wid sunglasses. hahas

this is a wedding car, cute right? i also wan!

me and sy =D

HAHAs, my favourite pic!

this is me i swear! no editing, i really jumped until this height ok. ><

me imitating a lion. LOL

me sy madeleine painting chinese mask! and i screwed mine =(

this is the super chio eurasian girl i played badminton with. she is super hot in real life.

a spastic pic. I HATE SMOKING!

i find this cute. hahas. maybe i can do that one day.

this is one shuai guy i say in the international school. too bad he has a gf hahas

in the DNT room. lol

my little ZAC EFFRON!

my pavilion. hey i am almost done alright!

zi lian skills sux cz i got the camera upside down!

me and grace. my table mate for half year. she is a very nice table mate u know.hahas.

this one is for celine. hahas

zilianing in progress

grace wid her amzing specs we saw in the suzhou industrial park

this is the canteen we eat in everyday in suzhou.

here is the end of the photo session. hope u enjoyed =D

2008-12-12T03:01:00.000-08:00

Dearest diary,

Today is 11 December, first dance pract…and I missed it. Sad but what can I do?
Talked to shixiao and asked her about it, seems like the progress for dance and it seems to be pretty fine. Oh man, I darn wanna go for dance practice…

Anyway, on the lighter note, today I woke up at 11.12!! omg, I was totally shocked but I guess it is normal for someone who slept at 3 the previous night. We had like girls’ talk and we chatted a lot. I carn wait to be in my new class next year, hope there are some fun ppl who will create some laughter and memorable memories.

Oh ya I completed my report ytd and edited it before sending it. Hope my report is okie and I at least get a sliver, though I know mine really sucks compared to Yvonne’s, Luohui’s, Shuyun’s, Sherry’s, Liling’s and Grace’s because, mine really sucks. 不过，依我的性格，我会尽量make the best of wad I have.

Anyway, making this blog is really a sudden decision but since I finally make it, I should make full use of it. Hmm… so I have decided to write some opinions I have on some news I see everyday. As for today, I haven’t read any news, so I am gonna reflect on the terrotist attack in India.

Firstly, I really think that the security in India really needs improvement. Like COME ON! The fact that you have been attacked by terrorist means that security has serious loopholes. Though undeniable, India is a country that is rising in aspects of economics, a truly responsible country is one that ensures that their people’s safety is ensured in the pursue of economic growth.
Talking about this, I think that maybe we should reflect on the incident that happened in Singapore, the hunt for Mas Selamat. Honestly, to be a responsible country as stated above, I think all citizen really should play a part, and stay vigilant at all times. I guess this is what Singaporeans realized after this incident, BUT putting it to action is still another important step to do. Nonetheless, security still has to be tight as basic security.

Oh ya I suddenly remember about some issues we had last week in Nanjing. Some of us were argueing that the Japan should admit the mistakes that their ancestor had during world war 2. yea, I totally agree. I mean that, the Japanese who killed innocent citizens then were totally atrocious and I believe that we should admit to the mistakes we do. This may be an unglamorous history to Japan but admitting the existence of this happening is definitely necessary and it may win Japan more support, just like how the Australia minister was widely applaud for his bravery to apologize to the slaves for the mistakes that his ancestor commited. (but I am not really sure about the details, remind me to check it out!) However I heard from Allan Ho that if Japan were to apologise, they would have to pay a really huge sum of money and I think it would be devastating to Japan’s economy. No wonder they don’t want to admit. I guess at least they could acknowledge the history and educate their next generation not to commit the same mistakes?

Special note: I just wanna thanks all the scholars who helped me celebrate my bday and stayed up to ALMOST 12 hahas. The cake was nice and the keychain is very cute. Not to mention it is my first birthday present.
And of cz, special thanks to my MUM DAD SIS KEL&KEN for ur bday smses. I know sx wanted to call me too so..thanks! Also, I must say that it is very stupid and irritating to have no msn especially on ur bday because no one can wish you except those around you. But it was really a very special bday. Thanks peepx!

Finally, just to clear things up, me and him are over. It really has been a long time since I have feel so single and free. It’s time to enjoy my singlehood! WOO!!

2008-12-05T00:28:00.000-08:00

dearest diary,

today is 5 dec,

2 more days to my bday!

i went shopping and guess wad, i bought NOTHING for myself (not counting the chocolate i bought to eat)

but at least i settled tongjing's and huangyao's present and i bought ear studs for sx.

hope they like wad i bought.

so that brings two person off my present list, so all i am left wid is dance ppl, esp lerae, dance teachers?? and my 2 brothers! hahas

maybe i will just buy a necklace for lerae, and 特产for all the rest.

oh ya i wanna buy a new bag and eyelash curler and maybe eyeliner.

u know it is pathetic to use dance make up esp when u are taking so slow and others are rushing u, so i ahve learnt my lesson

oh ya i wanna pierce my ear leh. so 爱美right? hahas.

but before i have to chiong for my survey collation.

THANKS kelvin for helping me send out my surveys! love u SO SO much!

tata ppl.

i miss my mummy......

yihui

2008-12-04T03:36:00.000-08:00

dearest diary,

today is 4 dec
3 more days to my bday
but i am NOT at all excited. cz i really miss my mum and dad and sis
i also miss my dance prac!! and wanglaoshi. hahas
currently, i have bought presents for the following ppl

mum
dad
yinghui
sx
karin
mil
fiona
yuxuan
soosien
yanting
celine
nicole wong

left wid TJ and huangyao, dance ppl and my bros
hahas. but i intend to just get some snacks for my dance ppl cz alot went china too.
so i bought milk sweets for them!! maybe i will be getting something tmr
5dec, going to Fashion Ladies...which means shopping time!
i also need to get eyelash curler, maybe earings for tj and some nice stuff for huangyao
oh ya i wanna pierce my ear leh but my mum dun let me. LOL
but i will persuade my mum hahas.

currently down cz it's over.
but i will be fine!
hope i dun see anything that makes me sad next yr.

yihui here.

2008-11-18T04:12:00.000-08:00

my first post on 18 nov
one day after our anniversary

dearest blog,
i am in suzhou now. cold and full! hahas
i am currently so bored until i have created a NEW blog and post a GL post here.
tmr i'm going on a shopping spree
so see my mood whether i will get pressie for my friends. joking...
i will sure get for my dance peeps, tj huangyao and eeyores.

let me see my present list
shixiao
mildred
karin
fiona
mum<3
dad<3
sis <3
kenneth<3
kelvin!!<3
tongjing
huangyao
lerae
yangtong
haiwei
celine
erjie
shuhui
nicole
dance boys
2e ppl

haiz so much presents to buy!

end of my first post.
happy.